Life in This World

1-Jan-2014 HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This day was marked with my abrupt coming to NIT. My dear friend Tanweer escorted me till the railway station. Then we had to part. I can't explain how I felt at that time and how much I wanted that if Tanweer could also come along with me. But NO. Finally the train rattled onto it's path and I sat alone. 2-Jan-2014 I woke up this morning at my bed at NIT once again when my "so called" roomies banged the door to come in. ... Oh! I forgot to mention that I spent the fortnight alone and merrily when no one was with me and I was alone. They came and finally I got up from bed. And now the life in semester2 commences. The battle days have started, and I am all prepared for it. Again I seek the same thing from God... i.e. courage, will power and determination. I pray to you god... just that thing which I know that you surely know! 4-jan-14 A boy came to our room and started discussing with my roomie , Mohit, a...

So... it's my 24th birthday. Conventionally it's supposed to be a very thrilling experience. But I do not quite get the feel of it. Instead when my relatives and friends and all call me it makes me go into the deeper side of the world's face and I get to see my previous birth where I celebrated this day with PAPA!! He was the personna. He lived this day as if it was his day and his celebration not mine. I don't really care or really seek attention from hemant cha or chotu cha. But only when I get wished by other relatives I do get a feel about my family's existence and that my 2 uncles used to be one of their kind-- the best !!       But now... some terrible happenings owe them to act in a very different and hostile way. I simply cannot believe that they did NOT even bother to call me on my birthday. Especially hemant cha... I remember my 7th or 8th birthday when he was the one to become so much excited and happy about my birthday. He only helped mom and dad...

So... 2nd semester has ended and now I'm on a long vacation at Patna. I have been staying at home all time and did the study part all alone here itself. But it feels a bit boring and less appealing here. When I compare my days back at college I can easily compare and feel that how much and with what intensity I used to study there. Thanks to the environment over there. Anyways, I came across this song at here and I really seem to have liked it. I am very much en thrilled about it's lyrics which goes as follows:- Chadhti lahre laangh na paayein Q haapti si naav h teri Tinka tinka jod k saanse Q haapti si naav h teri Ulti behti dhaar h bairi 2 k ab kuch kar ja re panthi jigar tuta k baat bandh le h baat thehri jaan pe teri shaan pe teri Haiya ho ki taan saath le h baat thehri jaan pe teri shaan pe teri chal jeet jeet lehra ja percham tu laal phehra ja ab kar ja tu ya mar ja kar le taiyaari ud ja ban k dhoop ka panchi chura k gehri chao andheri 2 Tinka...

So this time when I got back from home back to NIT .... something terrible happened! Actually I was sick for a few days and mom was greatly anxious about this fact and she didn't even want me to come back(and neither did I want to). But it is life and we all are bound to obey it's rules.      So the day came when I was leaving from home for the railway station. And mom ultimately embraced me and she was so sad that she almost wept. And that scene has just drilled inside my gray matter. I can't help it. I am so sad about it and really want to do something really great and big to gain ssome prestige in moms eyes. It is very very very much necessary.      Sometimes I also feel lonely and sad here and really miss my old family...not just papa. sometimes I feel that "kaaash aiisa hota ki " Chotu cha hemant cha and all and papa came all of  a sudden to my hostel ... find me sstudying and I would see them. How happy and merry tha moment that be.